Past 4 Years of My Life

The past four years of my life I had to deal with your shit. I could never finish what I intended to do every night. Because of this, I got held back in school, failed classes, and got mental disorders.

We fought every night and I can’t reason out with you.

I used to clean up for you for the first 12 months when we moved in together. You left your belongings everywhere and you would only clean on Saturdays. Why would you dedicate your Saturdays to cleaning? Clean as you go, idiot. Maybe you’ll look forward to your Saturdays.

Fast forward to today. Complains are still what fills the air at home because I don’t clean. I don’t clean because you never cleaned. Well, maybe you should analyze the different types and reasons of your messes.

Here are things that tick me off:

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Leaving your dirty clothes on the floor

 

You’re busy, or in a rush.

Okay, I expect you to clean it up when you come back. Do you?

Cooking and leaving plastic wrappers, used knives on the chopping board, frozen butter near the stove, and freshly cooked rich in the rice cooker

 

You sure are inattentive; you must be in a hurry, or not paying attention.

You’re watching youtube videos again.

It’s like taking a dump and not flushing. I see orange juice and fish oil on the chopping board. Who the hell does that? Do you expect me to flush for you?!

Leaving your clean clothing on the couch

What happened to your dresser? Are there other things taking up that space? Or is it empty and you’re just too lazy to put your clothes back?

I can no longer use my couch. You dedicated it as your second dresser.

No, I don’t take up the whole walk-in closet. You just need to learn how to budget and buy yourself some organizers.

No, I didn’t spend all your money. With all the extravagant things you like to buy and your unforgivable ways to live life, you did that all by yourself. Even when I wasn’t in the picture, you were in debt already.

Leaving our home messy while I see you panicking while answering your homework that’s due in a couple of hours

It seems as if you have time management issues. How can you tell me how to beat procrastination if you’re a fucking hypocrite and can’t even manage time with your family?

Once lazy, always lazy

 

This year, you’re telling me that you can’t change because I’m executing your old habits. What, you need a model now in order for you to change? You need a guide? You need someone to look up to? Grow up, faggot. You are about to turn 28 and you still need a role model?

Do you know why I don’t trust you?

 

Do you know why I won’t ever change until you’ve proven to me that you change first?

Ever since I knew you, you were already a liar.

I have proven many times that no one will ever believe you if you continue to be that way.

Will you ever gain people’s trust?

 

Many times people who have repeatedly broken the same promise, when you try to discuss it with them, will say “You always bring up the past.” Well, yea! When someone continually lies, breaks promises, or agreements, and then you point this out and they become belligerent at you “bringing up the past” has obviously not truly repented of what they did and then repeated.
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The solution for a happy ending

 

You’re going to have to find that out by yourself. You’re smart but like a child, you lack discipline. You’re a slave to your emotions. You curse as a result.

Maybe you need to figure yourself out. I know I’m not perfect either, but I know how I am.

You, however, do not.